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About staying together longer and why love languages are just like a bank account

25/11/2021

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In this entry I want to show you one quote about best trick to stay with someone long term and not change them into another one and another one and another one.. Here it is:
"To love someone long-term is to attend a thousand funerals of the people they used to be.
The people they're too exhausted to be any longer. The people they grew out of, the people they never ended up growing into. We so badly want the people we love to get their spark back when it burns out, to become speedily found when they are lost. But it is not our job to hold anyone accountable to the people they used to be. It is our job to travel with them between each version and to honour what emerges along the way. Sometimes it will be an even more luminescent flame. Sometimes it will be a flicker that temporarily floods the room with a perfect and necessary darkness." by Heidi Priebe 
Or as Esther Perel says: 
"Most people are going to have two or three marriages or committed relationships in their adult life. Some of us will have them with the same person." (I highly recommend to check some of Esther Perel works, she's super insightful about relationships and keeping desire in alive.)
Let’s hope, there are many, who can stay around and change with us… During all those times, when we surprise and bore each-other, when we enjoy or challenge one another.
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That were few thoughts and sentences on the topic about how long relationship could last.


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Why I want to talk about love languages?? It’s because I like languages and learn to speak them and I love how it is similar to financies or even food, look at that:
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Isn’t this meme just wonderful…? How it teaches you to value and enjoy each others way around tacos :) So, dear friends, eat tacos, always be delicious and most importantly know, what she or he likes about tacos as well.. And then.. :) please, not only identify and accept your friend's language but also learn it, speak it and then the emotional bank of your lover will never ever be emptied.
Relationship are like bank accounts… We have some deposit, when we are doing something nice and ok for each-other and then, if there is anger, conflicts and similar, we have a withdrawal. It is said "In healthy relationships there are 5 deposits for every 1 withdrawal. [...]
Let’s say you were fluent in Italian and your partner is fluent in French. You would be perfectly communicating, but your partner does not understand you. Love languages are the same way. You must learn to speak your partner’s language in order for him or her to feel cared for. This means that you do what ever it is that makes them feel loved. This will make a deposit in your partner’s emotional bank account. If your love language is Physical Touch and your partner’s is Acts of Service, then snuggling with your partner will not make him or her feel cared for, even though you are showing love (according to you)." You can read more here.

In other words: "If you want your partner to feel loved, there is absolutely no substitute for learning and speaking their love language.  Otherwise we leave our partner – and ourselves – in a very vulnerable place.  But when we identify their love language, we can fill their emotional bank account on purpose and enjoy better warmth and connection in our relationship – with simple, focused effort." You can read more here.

And that were few thoughts and sentences on the topic about how good relationship could be.
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Thanks for reading
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You can find original quiz, how to know your main love language here 
​The love language quiz 💗

Also for the happy ending: one important and interesting video on consent as a bike ride (click on the bike)
Consent as a bike ride 🚴

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How to find the middle ground between topdog and underdog states - way to secure attachments

17/11/2021

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If you finding yourself within being on a top on everything and everyone you meet  most of the time, so you must be a topdog, the leader of a food chain so on. Person, who was a cool kid in the class and similar. You achieve a lot and still going towards a lot, you set your clear goals and actually hitting them one by one. You know, you’re liked, you give good impression, it’s easy to conversate with others and you’re just that “easy going” girl/guy. You also must be familiar how much of emptiness and nothingness there can be within yourself and those around you and in everything in general… how nothing makes sense and is seemingly useless… You achieve goals, one after another but it’s just… useless… Most of a burden apart this nothingness surrounding you is also constant attempts to hold your image, to maintain this facade, and no one can look through it. Cool and awesome - outside, alone and empty – inside, caring and nice – outside, useless and dark – inside.. It’s so hard, especially, when everyone is sure, you’re just fine or even some are convinced you're bad in being such a leader and mostly for simply not giving up your stuff and your-self to others, although you might be doing it as well… just not as loud, more privately. It’s a struggle and not many or even none of others seemingly get’s it. You like to fight and freeze (pretend dead)
If you’re finding yourself being left behind, sitting in the corners, unable to speak up, your voice is slow and low, you consider yourself for an introvert or at least others think so. You like being isolated, get tired fast from the people and crowds. Most of life you just are in your own world, a bubble. You know, you were bullied in school… Various reasons: too smart, too ugly, too this and that.. and all, basically any reason. You know you could achieve so much more but seemingly you just stuck in worthless jobs, trying often just “blend in”, “not stick out”.. being grey and avoiding opportunities, since you know the hurt of falling and it seems like better to take less but hold it like, if that was most pure gold that is known on this planet, or even not known to no one… Sometimes maybe you hide mostly valuable things even from your-self for security reasons. I know, it sounds funny, you know, you’re funny, that keeps predators away. You like to run and fawn (pretend you’re inseparable with the attacker). Despite you being such a good chameleon and master in saving stuff and people and all you touch, you know, you miss opportunities, you know you lie a lot… And also… you know, you are silent too often.. you slip just before getting "it", let go just before actually becoming more happy… You play too often, pretend and so on. And actually no one sees it… even worse, instead of encourage you to go on, people often tend to see you as a traitor as a shady one, who needs to be punished. You let them walk on you and they do it with a pleasure cause, you know, not everyone get's it…, when the only thing you really need is a friendly hand to help you to stand up tall and fend you, when you shiver. You know your strategy isn’t always working and opportunism isn't rewarded as in fairy tails but you still have a hope… hard to live saving the world with that crazy hope to be saved by someone in the process yourself.
And then…. If you only know these two types and you actually can be only in these two state that I described above (and in no any other possible state).. And both of these states seem doomed, then article is really mostly for you and about you and it’s not a threat, rather an attempt to understand you and myself better.
I think it’s like some pollution or missunderstandings between cultures… If it’s like a pollution, so it can be similar to addiction, although it isn’t that. We all need air, water, food, sleep, movement, sex, - basic physiological needs, we all have safety needs for ok health, finances, personal, emotional state. In same way we have just as we need connection, socialising, having purposeful relationships, close friendships, family, company, emotional, mental intimacy. And just like our air, water, food can be polluted, we might appear in environment, where it's hard to sleep or move or get privacy, so on, so same might happened with our bonding, we might have been in toxic or just purely working bonding situation for so long and from such an early time (mostly from the birth) that we aren’t capable to create more pure and effective social environment later on, and who could blame or shame us for it? Especially, when so many of homo sapiens are simply with more or less polluted circle anyway.. How it ends up? It seems like in that Pink song: Just like a pill…. Or just like a packet of cigarettes or like a wine.. so on.. it often seems like addiction because we are set to need a bond but since we only know, how to create unhealthy stuff with others, we end up feeling sick.. we are in pain… it's seems to be the burden - to connect so much more than to stay simply alone… but then, we're set for bonding, so we try again, and fail again… Seems like being cursed? Or “ending with bad guys/girls” ALWAYS… even friends don’t seem trustworthy… co-workers.. ALL, EVERYONE… We either are changing partners and having one night stands, trying not to attach to anyone really, no one can have more value or power than us, so we just dump anyone… change anyone, like tools or things to achieve and then we go to achieve another one. Or we are picky and not trusting, and if we do, so that person is like gulped by us then and/or tortured for eternal competition, where both finally lose their sense of, who's winning or who's losing. Or…. We do both… depending, who’s near and how they treat us: don't attach or make their life impossible, if attachment happened.. Never ever attach and never ever let the other to attach to you. Why?? Because attaching/letting to attach seems too dangerous, we all know, what it meant in our childhood, right? Either they will abuse you or neglect you or both, so how to do it differently?? So you either abuse or neglect or both as well. Vicious circle.
A person, who has been breathing poisonous gas from birth, after releasing him/her into the woods will think that he's dying from that fresh air, at least at the start ... We can see fresh air as dangerous, if we were never exposed to it, just like we would view a person, who knows how to make healthy connections. We would probably defend ourselves against that person ... as if we would fight for our own lives with some unknown evil. The sobriety is still super unpopular and we’re ridiculously clinging to the same old "good".

I found one image in some group and added some details to it. In this scheme you can see both poles of extreme behaviour in bonding:
Anxious one - those people, who attach but can't let you to attach, they simply slip or make your life a living hell experience, so you must leave anyway. That type is run by anxiety mostly, often called co-dependants or anxious-preoccupied ones (as myself mostly)
Avoidant one - those people, who have impossible standards no one can fulfil and they just dump everyone, they don't attach.. One night stands, short bonds are often an option. This type is run by fear mostly, often classified as counter-dependants or dismissive avoidants.
Some people maintain both poles within and uses one strategy or the other depending on surroundings. That type is run by mixed type of high insecurity, called disorganized ones or fearful avoidants (sometimes have traits of some narcissism, not always).
And some people don't have peaks of those poles within... they are soft/flexible in their behaviour and can accidentally act as, if they would be avoidant or anxious, but that's super small percentage of their behaviour. Secure ones


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And then I present you some dog/hog meme I came up with after talking with a friend, in this image:
Top dog - high achiever, leader, sweet heart (who doesn't want to be that, right?)
Under dog - lost case, outcast, rebel (who on earth would want to be that, right?)
Middle ground dog - just an ok pal (and that's... simply just sooooo boring :D)
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These categories also show that it's not about being on the top, falling and then waiting till being on the top and then falling eventually to learn some again.. it's more about sticking about the middle ground, softly or freely moving from the top to the bottom and back, flexible. And!!! Being ok with that or somewhat okey, depending on circumstances.

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About this groundhog… between topdog and underdog… you know.. spring is still coming and groundhog is known to predict spring and stuff… if not only for me, so then for everyone because why not? Who wants to live forever and not make their attachment style simply happier and more available for lovable people…

​So yeah, I guess, that is the way to just rolling this all up….
Oh and the explanation: grounded in this meme means centred (popular description in psychology). Coping - grounding psychology
AND obviously, most important detail in the meme: 
- first groundhog is Robin Hood (my childhood dream)
- second one is a florist (my another childhood dream)

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​This - just, what you learned some time ago:
if you’re not the top, then you're under… if you're not under, then you are the top…
Lose those top and under dawgs, shell we?…
​That's just some odd bulls***t, baby…

Let go all of this, get up, go on, just be an OK one… just… be a human.
Let's go, let's change, let's stay, don't run, don't use that humour..
​There is a rhyme, listen... it's time... 
Take all your freedom and fly…
It's all ok, all is fine.

f***k those chains… who needs them ever??
I just need a warm hug :D hug that lasts like forever
Yeah, man. PEACE 
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Let the force be with you

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BTW: never ever give up, it's not allowed 
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​Oh and BTW2: Pink and her hubbie are taking therapy on and off to save their precious family and level up their creative team-up, be like Pink :) 

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How love and compatibility isn't the same thing or how to build your Life Mountain

11/11/2021

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So how love and compatibility are different things? I think it's super simple: one is more unconscious and there can't be clear way to explain it (well, maybe only by poets), while the other is more conscious and possible to be explained.
I recently (2021 September) have made my list for to reach people, I would be compatible with not only on unconscious level, well, you know that level, where MAGIC - love, friendship, attraction and other wonders suddenly happens… and sadly, but when only that happens then people end up slowly wasting that magic/regaining it, going into various type of relational hell/heaven, 
it is difficult to endure or it might even look like, if you were doomed to eternal failure and then experience bliss again, so on, followed by repeating break-ups out of the blue, and then getting together again, - all of which leads to complete confusion, chaos and despair, it's "IMPOSSIBLE".. So, what I did, I made some conscious list to not get dragged to the magical places only.
There are many ways to get more aware and educated in the reality of bonding with someone, it can include Attachment Style Theory, it can include Love Languages, working on your CO-dependency/COUNTER-dependency and other types of healing, building up your psyche. Attachment Style Theory – that is very complex, super effective and layered method of (re)building bonding within you first of all and then creating better connections around you as well, I would highly recommend these guys: Personal Development School, also this group. Love Languages and how to understand them in you and your partner/friend/co-worker, recommendations for books. CO-dependency/COUNTER-dependency – there are various courses payed and free for to discovery your type of attachments with people and get to the point, where one or another learned dependency or both wouldn’t bother you or be almost not appearing anymore to the level of no bother, recommending spartanlifecoach courses.

So, back to my list, I created, this is, what it is at this moment (you can find similar example here):

How much do you cover?
  • - Knows their main interests in life 20%
  • - Knows their most important values 20%
  • - Is an ally or a member of psychology geeks and LGBT people 15%
  • - Knows or is keen to know her/his attachment style and work on it (if needed) 15%
  • - Doesn't drink, smoke, likes healthy life style. 10%
  • - Isn't super lefty or super righty in her/his political world view 5% Conscious.
  • - lives near or is ok to move or me moving 5%
  • - is ok with living in a country side or suburbia 5% Bit more quite environment.
  • - likes to travel around the world or doesn't mind me travelling 5% that's the future!
  • I think its my conscious part of preferred compatibility  at this time. I am sure, it will change as I do.


+ As mentioned in the beginning, there is also unconscious compatibility in bonding... I’m not sure, how to catch that... It’s just is or isn't or partially or in waves... Or in 'portions'. Don’t know, hard to describe, I guess. Well, you know it, it's almost in every second song in Youtube... no news.
Also yes, it’s how much of the space and opportunities you give for people, who want to get to you/ what space and all is given for you as well, I love to give and receive this part, pleasant. Or you try to get closer to them and reaching your goals on a go until you're done and satisfied. I think it’s awesome part of bonding - exactly how much they enjoy reaching out to get closer and getting to their goals too. I enjoy it as well, challenging.
To give illustration on it: there is a tale for kids in Lithuania about 2 angels by V.V. Landsbergis... one is Gabriel and he thinks that forgiveness is a BIG thing and it’s better to give stuff to those, who don't have stuff... since others already have it, so no point for giving here.
And there is Michael.. he thinks that everyone suppose to earn things. And only by earning alone in this exact process people already get, what they need... so you basically don’t need to give but to challenge people to go earn stuff. That is your giving. I remembered this tale in 2021 October

Also I would put this picture I just maid for to comply with my list of percentage (image is made 2021 November, this autumn was simply amazing): 
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Source of the image: here

I hope, you'll enjoy creating your ways of understanding your preferred compatibility in your bonding and how to communicate it to others and encourage them to get back to you with their own lists and similar creations at their own pace and timing!! Let's break the eternal doom of our connections, we can only do it, if it goes both ways me<->you! Best luck

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