How to find the middle ground between topdog and underdog states - way to secure attachments17/11/2021 If you finding yourself within being on a top on everything and everyone you meet most of the time, so you must be a topdog, the leader of a food chain so on. Person, who was a cool kid in the class and similar. You achieve a lot and still going towards a lot, you set your clear goals and actually hitting them one by one. You know, you’re liked, you give good impression, it’s easy to conversate with others and you’re just that “easy going” girl/guy. You also must be familiar how much of emptiness and nothingness there can be within yourself and those around you and in everything in general… how nothing makes sense and is seemingly useless… You achieve goals, one after another but it’s just… useless… Most of a burden apart this nothingness surrounding you is also constant attempts to hold your image, to maintain this facade, and no one can look through it. Cool and awesome - outside, alone and empty – inside, caring and nice – outside, useless and dark – inside.. It’s so hard, especially, when everyone is sure, you’re just fine or even some are convinced you're bad in being such a leader and mostly for simply not giving up your stuff and your-self to others, although you might be doing it as well… just not as loud, more privately. It’s a struggle and not many or even none of others seemingly get’s it. You like to fight and freeze (pretend dead) |
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