Universally Acceptable Behavior 6: HEALING

I recently finished listening to the Bible. For a while now, I've been listening more than reading — time flows more gently that way, and I don't have to stare at a screen that strains my eyes. Still, paper books remain a delicacy for me, one I always return to if there's a chance. Just not any books — I have a bag full of ones that no longer interest me. But Jonah from the Bible... Jonah stuck with me. Not for holiness. For the story.
Everything was taken from him: family, connections, position, safety. He was left as no one's, nothing's, nowhere. Completely thrown out of what people call a "decent life" — so much so that even the devil couldn't tempt him. He couldn't catch Jonah with excess, bottom, fears, or promises. Jonah knelt, raged, rebelled, argued with God... and still didn't break. It sounds like a person who went through the hell of disorganization and held onto their inner axis. And here, my favorite metaphor emerged:

🟥 **The disorganized type sometimes creates the game themselves to escape reality...
and then participates in it to destroy its meaning.**
Like the "Squid Game" creator who builds the game to control chaos, but steps into it to deny the chaos, and thus becomes the director of their own trauma theater.
This is a person who:
→ flees reality into a structure that destroys them,
→ flees pain into chaos that amplifies it,
→ flees from themselves — and returns to themselves only through destruction.
That's the signature of disorganization:
create a system to protect yourself — and demolish it so you don't go mad.
So there you can find both the game owner and the first eliminated player. Both have the same inner rhythm:
"There is no safety — only safety breaths and longing."

🟦 Why Did Jonah End Up on the Same Shelf as the Squid Game Creator?
At first, it seemed to me that this reflection should go in part 5 (about attachment). But this thought was too alive, too bodily, too human, and now I see why.
Jonah and the Squid Game creator are the same archetype.
One stayed in hell, the other returned from it.
In the story, Jonah experiences absolute polarities:
chaos → emptiness,
emptiness → pain,
pain → control,
control → rebellion,
rebellion → faith.
He was thrown into darkness so deep, as children from dysfunctional families are thrown — where safety is just a mirage, where even love has a price.
That's why Jonah resonates so precisely with disorganization:
when you grow up in hell, even heaven seems like a deception.

Litvinova Julia “Fallen angels with bound wings”, 2016
Children from dysfunctional families grow up in filth and vice. Their wings are bound from birth, there is no opportunity to break out of the vicious circle, and therefore no future. Beatings, chained to radiators to keep them out of the way. And when they grow up, the social bottom awaits them: drug addiction, prostitution and other plagues of modern society. They have never seen anything else and, unfortunately, will never see anything else.

I agree with every word drawn here.
Just not with the last thought.
I believe that even the most wounded part of a person can be accepted, but at the same time, precisely, courageously, calmly — not allowed to destroy the spaces that accept them. Not allowed to smash the doors they themselves want to enter.
​Such a person must learn that their self-made Squid Game won't be accepted where healing happens. Only efforts are accepted, and thus space is gained to breathe from inner cruelty. It's possible. ✊

🟩 And Here's What Jonah Really Teaches: The Hope of Return.
He returned.
And that's the reason this post is called HEALING:
✔ It's possible to return to safety even after total collapse;
✔ The brain can learn peace from chaos;
✔ Darkness can become a foundation, not a curse;
✔ Healing doesn't mean avoiding chaos — it means not repeating it.
Because some people, fleeing chaos, choose connections where there's only... emptiness.
Emptiness looks like peace from the outside. But it's not peace.
It's a mask. Another extreme.
Life ≠ Chaos.
Peace ≠ Emptiness.
​As one movie character said:
"Life always finds a way."
Let's add:
"Peace does too."

🟪 So, Here's What I Leave in This Post
Even if a Squid Game creator lives inside you, and life keeps putting you in the "first eliminated player's" spot, you can still be Jonah.
Not the one who avoided darkness.
But the one who lived through it.
Not the one who was "perfect."
But the one who couldn't be caught by excess or poverty.
And that's the essence of HEALING.
This post is not an addition.
t's a more mature stop.

​From song lyrics:
"...Down in a hole, feeling so small
Down in a hole, losing my soul
I'd like to fly, but my wings have been so denied"
Just like in Litvinova's painting:
it's hard to fly when you were trained only to forget you can.
And will the next post be about Jonathan Livingston Seagull?
We'll see. 🙂

P.S. I have memories that almost literally echo Litvinova's paintings.
I don't have the resources to fully understand which of them are real, and which are my inner experiences overlaid onto external events.
And I no longer need to.
It's all valid. I don't have to wait for crystal clear truth to trust my experience.
Faith isn't naivety here — faith is rock'n'roll, even if logic remains being "the king." 🕺